February 2012
31 posts
Emotional.
I’ve been really moody and emotional lately..
I think I’m just really sad and hurt by a lot of stuff. Right now, I’m not gonna lie I miss my mom. I grew up without a dad, no call no picture no nothing. I don’t even know his full name. So my mom was my sole parent and I was so clingy to her. She did a lot of bad stuff though growing up, she always chose the men she dated...
What's new?
My life has been nothing but working and working out. I really do enjoy my job. I also signed up for 24. My gym is really small lol. But I like it, I just put my headphones on and do work. People don’t really talk much, they’re like me. They are just there to do their own thing.
I started taking melatonin to help me sleep. I have a hard time sleeping so it helps relax me.
Drifting...
Currently just drifting through life…
For the record,
& also the answer to your question.
I’ve known all along. Nothing’s changed.
You don't hold someone's past against them unless...
Slowly the Love turned into Tolerance...
Don't tell me how to spend my money.
Seriously, this is my biggest pet peeve. I work hard for my money. I pay my entire families cell phone bills, I also have money saved up on the side. I haven’t even touched my past three pay checks, so the last thing I need is people telling me not to spend money. If I feel liks spoiling myself then damn it I will. Who the heck are you to tell me I can’t. Grrrrrr. I’m so annoyed.
Break up or get married.
evelyn-alyssa:
That’s my thinking mentality when finding a significant other. Why would you go out with someone if you know you guys won’t last? If I go out with someone, it’s because I can see myself marrying them in the future. It’s stupid to just go out with someone just because of their looks.
What are you gonna do when they grow old and wrinkly?
I thought I was the only one, I...
You win some, you lose some.
That’s just how it goes.
Bad Girls Club.
I’ve been watching it and I just have to say, that it is so shady for girls to gang up on one person. If you don’t have the balls to stand on your own then you shouldn’t say anything. Period. I remember in HS I got into a fight with two girls. Back to back and a third chick tried to fight me to. Now that is ridiculous, how cool are you to try and fight one person. I hate that...
Day Off.
Enjoying my day off. Running errands and treating me to some online shopping. Resting up before I start work. New work schedule and more hours, should be fun. ^_^
If you waste time analyzing you'll let the moment...
I think this is something I have to work on. I can’t help but over think and question things and possible outcomes. It’s in my nature. People always tell me take a chance and just enjoy things. But I can’t, I just can’t do it. What if I enjoy it and then it goes straight to hell, it’ll hurt. & you know what I couldn’t handle that. I don’t want to hurt....
Not Caring.
I think the saddest thing is when a person stops being mad and just stops caring. At least when you’re mad it’s because you’re hurt and you care about the person. To be at a point of not caring and not even being phased by it, now that’s truly sad.
Fuck You Giants.
Giants fan dont talk to me!
I think people should think before they say stuff.
Like why the hell would you say that?
I don’t care if it was meant as a joke or what. Can you learn to filter what comes out please. Thank you!
Three type of woman.
I’ve come to the conclusion that there are three type of woman in a relationship.
First, is the clingy girlfriend. She starts to lose interest in her friends all she does is want to be with her partner. Very dependent. Pretty much her life revolves around him. She loses herself in him.
Second, the independent woman who is quite the opposite of miss clingy. She does everything she can to...
You bleed just to know you're alive.
So,
I have some big plans coming up. The funny thing is if I wanted to, I could do it now. We shall see. :)
Dear Lord,
I reflect back and think of how much you’ve blessed me with. A house and food every day. You gave me all the necessity that a person needs. In that sense I am thankful. Yet, you have also put a lot of crappy things in my life. & when I say crappy I mean horrible. Things people could not understand. No wonder I’ve been battling depression. I know it’s because you have a...
A lot of things happening at once.
My aunt passed away today.
My nephew had to spend the whole night in the hospital getting poked with needles and doing test. Sigh. Things aren’t going well with my family right now.
I’m so frustrated.
You should know that you're loved.
I’ve been told this. I should KNOW that I’m loved right? In my past relationships I’ve heard this, & I have this thing where I need to feel a certain way. I need constant attention, I need to feel connected to you. If I love you there’s a reason. Or is it I just fell in love with the way I was treated by you? This is my thing. TREAT ME HOW YOU PLAN TO TREAT ME OUR WHOLE...
I get mad when something's wrong and I can't...
January 2012
83 posts
God...
I find my way back to God & I slowly put the pieces back together…& BAM this hits. Everyone’s eyes are swollen..My papa is slipping into depression. My family is broken. We need God right now, please explain this to me…
As of right now...
Fuck everybody and everything…
None of that matters now. All the little petty things I don’t have time for. There is so much going on and I really need to get my shit together. So, I’m warning everyone that I’m on a short temper, so don’t fuck with me.
Thank You.
It’s hard to believe that there’s a grander plan to all that we do. I’ve lost sight of the light that keeps me pushing. It makes me question, is there something more? Is the objective of life to see how much you can break a person before they lose hope. If so the game is at an end.
Marriage..
You know lately I’ve been thinking that I don’t want to ever get married. Hear me out. Of course every girl dreams of having a big wedding and wearing a dress and the ring. But lately I’ve noticed a lot of marriages don’t work. Look how messed up everything is now. The divorce rate, people still being married but dating other people. It’s just lost it’s meaning....
It shouldn't take for you to leave for a man to...
No one wants to date a slut...
How are you supposed to appreciate what you have, when every ones had it. -Just saying.
My heart hurts...
It’s hard trying to be a good person, I’m not perfect I’m really not…But I try to do what’s right, I try to be there for people that I care about, but it makes me sick seeing how everyone takes advantage of me. I’m tired of dealing with everyone’s bad attitude and still trying to be supportive. I’m over it all, I really am. I wish I could cast you...
Stupid Hoe.
Can someone please explain to me what the hell she is trying to do? Dissing Shakira, Gaga, and Keri Hilson…Who are the other ones? Wtf. Please explain this video to me?
Because if it is what I think it is, I’m so over her. Wtf, these people are way more talented than her & they fucking make sense lyrically…How the hell is she gonna diss shakira, Nicki isn’t even in the...
Easy come easy go.
This is why I have no friends. Because of insecure people who don’t know how to appreciate a friendship. Whatever.
Standing at a fork in the road.
I gave up my option of security..
Instead I’m walking a different path. A path full of choices, endless outcomes, a lot of uncertainty. I’m scared…It’s forcing me to stand on my own and take chances…
The only positive is that it’s helping me grow…I have to keep moving. Keep pushing…
