May 2012
10 posts
Straight from the heart.
Tomorrow is my birthday…I feel like shit. Maybe it’s just today, but it’s hard for me. It’s my first birthday without my papa. Maybe I took for granted those times where I rushed him off of the computer so we could eat cake..Sigh* I can honestly say that I’m not happy. I feel like people won’t leave me alone and just sulk for a bit. I mean the wound is still...
Current Thoughts.
Fuck everyone.
I have so much on my plate right now, people have no idea. Then everyone wonders why I’m so irritable? You have got to be kidding me. I’m dealing with shit that is hard for an adult let alone someone my age. I know I come off as a bitch to my family but someone has to step up to the plate and put their foot down. This is all unacceptable, my papa would never allow it. I...
I’m angry at you for leaving and now I have to deal with all of this shit. I have to worry about a mortgage and now the safety of my family. This is bullshit.
How do you spend your whole life with someone, and then you have to just accept the fact that they’re gone? To come home everyday to the same house only to know that person won’t be there. How do you watch your loved ones walk around lost, trying to pass the time..As if we’re all waiting, waiting for something that will never come? How are you supposed to just continue with your...
Fuck my feelings, right?
April 2012
11 posts
Anonymous asked: i'm sorry about your papa.
Girls who have babies and still party
itssashh:
are beyond selfish. Your parents basically adopted your kid but with an added confusion as to who their mom actually is. It probably would’ve been best that you really put your child up for adoption into a stable home…but noo…it was too “complicated” or “shame”. Children are innocent, they weren’t given a choice when brought into this world so why should they suffer and be treated like...
The path of least resistance leaves room for...
I don't like people.
I get annoyed easily, & I dislike a lot of people. Sigh*
I don't mind being alone, I'm just not good...
Trouble in paradise.
Lately, a lot has been going on. I work all the time. Which I don’t mind really, I might as well make money and escape from everything else going on. I just feel so tired, and my dreams are still haunting. My papa is sick…very sick. He has to do a lot of test…I think it’s waiting for the results that take forever. Doctors say it could be cancer…Whatever it is, I just...
Flustered.
Working all the time, frustrated with people. Sigh* I’m so tired it’s not even funny. I leave home at 5am and getting home at 5 pm. I can’t sleep at night, my brain simply won’t allow it. My dreams are filled with nightmares. There is nothing that I look forward to anymore…
It feels like
0nthereal:
I need more time than you can give
March 2012
14 posts
Deactivated Fb.
Only for a few days. I kind of just want to take a break from everything. Maybe the next week I can just focus on work and hanging out with friends and family. Nothing to serious.
Torn.
I love Manning, but seriously?! I can’t be a Broncos fan. He should have just retired with dignity. Smh.
Current Status:
I’m over the idea of a relationship. It’s always the same story. I know most might say it’s my taste in men..But I date a variety of men! Trust me, it’s always the same thing. Is it so wrong to want a good relationship based on love, trust, respect, and good communication. I’m not one to easily forgive. My way of dealing with stuff is saying I don’t care. At...
The Game.
Why do we still play this game, we do it to ourselves. It’s back and forth with no real progress. Yet, you still play because you’re holding on to the promised prize. It’s like chasing a destination that you know you will never reach. Why do we play? We turn it into a game when it should be the easiest decision to make. Maybe that’s why we chase it, because it’s not...
I miss the way we talk.
I'm Back.
Working 5 days a week and my days off involve laundry and sleeping…
February 2012
31 posts
Emotional.
I’ve been really moody and emotional lately..
I think I’m just really sad and hurt by a lot of stuff. Right now, I’m not gonna lie I miss my mom. I grew up without a dad, no call no picture no nothing. I don’t even know his full name. So my mom was my sole parent and I was so clingy to her. She did a lot of bad stuff though growing up, she always chose the men she dated...
What's new?
My life has been nothing but working and working out. I really do enjoy my job. I also signed up for 24. My gym is really small lol. But I like it, I just put my headphones on and do work. People don’t really talk much, they’re like me. They are just there to do their own thing.
I started taking melatonin to help me sleep. I have a hard time sleeping so it helps relax me.
Drifting...
Currently just drifting through life…
For the record,
& also the answer to your question.
I’ve known all along. Nothing’s changed.
You don't hold someone's past against them unless...
Slowly the Love turned into Tolerance...
Don't tell me how to spend my money.
Seriously, this is my biggest pet peeve. I work hard for my money. I pay my entire families cell phone bills, I also have money saved up on the side. I haven’t even touched my past three pay checks, so the last thing I need is people telling me not to spend money. If I feel liks spoiling myself then damn it I will. Who the heck are you to tell me I can’t. Grrrrrr. I’m so annoyed.
Break up or get married.
evelyn-alyssa:
That’s my thinking mentality when finding a significant other. Why would you go out with someone if you know you guys won’t last? If I go out with someone, it’s because I can see myself marrying them in the future. It’s stupid to just go out with someone just because of their looks.
What are you gonna do when they grow old and wrinkly?
I thought I was the only one, I...
You win some, you lose some.
That’s just how it goes.
Bad Girls Club.
I’ve been watching it and I just have to say, that it is so shady for girls to gang up on one person. If you don’t have the balls to stand on your own then you shouldn’t say anything. Period. I remember in HS I got into a fight with two girls. Back to back and a third chick tried to fight me to. Now that is ridiculous, how cool are you to try and fight one person. I hate that...